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An Homage to Autumn

22 Sep

Fall has arrived.239-sun-through-leaves

Well, almost; its close enough really to get me in the spirit.  This is, after all, my most favorite time of year.  I can practically smell the wonderfulness that is fall; I can feel the crisp air in my bones.  I wait all year for this and finally it is here.

What are a few more lingering warm days of summer when the state fair is less than a week away?  Hay rides and hoodies are waiting for me in the weeks to come.  Hot cocoa and the sound of leaves crunching beneath my feet are just within reach.

Soon, everywhere I look I will see the familiar comfort of orange and browns all around me.  It will be time to pack away the tank tops (and, dare I say flip flops) in exchange for long sleeves and socks that will bring me back to the cozy reminders of long distant childhood memories.  Any day now I will smell the inviting scents of that miraculous time of year, the delicious smells of cinnamon and pumpkin, turkey and yams.  Even more familiar the musty smell of damp barnyards and the sweet smell of fresh cut hay as it is baled for the upcoming winter.

Soon, it will be hay rides and pumpkin patches, festivals and parades, laughter and bittersweet memories of the once lush and lazy summer that has morphed into the fresh promise of new beginnings.

Ahh, autumn, my old friend…you have come back to me at last.


Fair Day

16 Aug

The cool, early morning air felt exquisite blowing through my hair.  In the
distance I could smell the faint whiffs of the animal stalls as the workers
mucked them out mixed with the sweet smells of hot cocoa and sausage being sold
at the nearby Owens Family stand. The wooden bench was moist beneath me as my
feet kicked at the sand and dirt mixture beneath. The early morning sounds of
the fair were some of my favorite sounds, the rides swooshing loudly on their
test runs, the lyrics of an Alabama song from the speaker of a nearby radio, the
game callers shouts as they heckle the passer-bys on the Midway.

It was October in Texas, the excitement filled the air around me, I looked
forward to this time of year, hay rides and pumpkin patches, sweaters and
shorts.  This day, however, was fair day, the one day of the year that even the
oldest among us could forget about that and feel a little more like a kid
again.  I started every fair day the same way each year, arriving early, before
the crowds arrived to enjoy the peacefulness of the brisk fall morning.  In
fact, the only thing that had changed after all these years was the absences of
my parents and the home made sausage biscuits that mom made each year fresh that
morning and carefully wrapped in foil and stored in the cooler to keep them warm
until time to eat.

A stroll through the farm buildings would bring back memories of Spike, the
police horse my mother “adopted” one year.  Year after year in the days that led
up to fair day, mom would constantly talk about Spike and wonder if he would
still be there waiting for her to come see him and each year after year we would
stroll through the barns looking at the pigs and Billy goats making our way
through the maze of stalls until we would at last reach the horse stalls.  The
sign at the door way read “authorized
personnel only” but that never stopped
mom, she would walk on right through the doors and gaze at the names on each of
the stalls until she would find Spike.  He knew her, instinctively, each time
despite all the weeks apart, she could call his name and he would comeright over
and nuzzle his wet nose into her palm.  She could stand there for hours and talk
to him, I always suspected that they were kindred spirits of sorts, it was the
only thing that kept her coming to the fair each year until one year we
and Spike wasn’t there, no sign of him, no name plate on the stall door,
nothing.  We managed to track down a worker who gave us the news.  We left early
that year; mom just couldn’t bear the hurt any longer.  That was the last year
mom came to the fair.

When I was a child the midway was my favorite place to be.  It screamed fun
and excitement but the only problem was that I was too big of a chicken to ride
any of them.  It took a couple of years for my dad to talk me into riding more
than just the marry-go-round and the go karts.  It was the scrambler and it
terrified me.  I was six with a broken arm when he helped me into the silver and
blue streaked car.  He settled into the seat next to me and squeezed me close as
they secured the bar in place.  He looked over at me and explained how to get
the most out of the ride, explained how to feel the pull of the ride and just
when to shift so that as the ride spins to make it feel like it was going
faster.  The ride started slowly and I looked up and found mom in the people
standing by the riding watching as it began to spin us backward from our
starting place.  I was laughing while I waved at her, laughing at the freedom of
spinning around in a circle, weightless and giddy, I laughed until the tears
came.  Mixed in with the
joy and exhilaration was trepidation and fear.  I
was six the day I had my first panic attack but I can still feel my dad’s arm
pulling me closer to him, what must have been only a couple of minutes felt like
an eternity to me but finally I heard the buzzer sound and the ride begin to
slow to a stop.  I could feel my dad’s chest heaving up and down as he chuckled
at my reaction to the ride.  As my dad helped me off the ride suddenly there was
a wave of sadness that washed over me, it was a lot like my reaction to the
movie Poltergeist, it scared the crap out of me but I didn’t want it to end.  In
the years that followed the Scrambler would become one of my favorite rides
along with the
Tilt-a-Whirl and the Love Bug.  I never would conquer my fear
of heights but there was something about the thrill of the speed that I never
forgot.  I miss my dad most now on fair day.

Next to Spike my mom loved to walk through the buildings looking at the
exhibits and the arts and crafts.  I remember the dankness of the exhibition
halls crowded with people oohing and ahhing over the colorful quilts and
delicate pies, watching as people peddled their wares, demonstrating their
amazing knives that can slice through silk with ease, the chopping device that
made a perfect red and green Pico de Gallo, Native American artistry, the
tapestry of colors and smells and tastes was enough to send your senses into
overload.  Miles and miles of nooks, a seasonal flea market of sorts that drew
sellers from all over the state to set up stand for a couple of weeks a year
hoping to sell, sell, sell!  As I grew older the midway lost some of its appeal
and the buildings and their inhabitants began to appeal to me. I suspect that my
country roots began to show more as I grew older; these days there is just
something about watching as common people compete to win the blue ribbon for the
best apple pie or the best double stitch or walking to the end of the hall to
see the statue of Elvis made out of butter.  Yes, butter!

As the day grew to an end we would make our way slowly back toward the
parking lot, via the food court!  Cotton Candy and fried everything, fall just
wasn’t fall without a Fletchers corny dog, a yellow cornmeal and beef delicacy
on a stick.  People would stand in line for an hour just to get this small piece
of heaven on a stick then make their
way over to the mustard pump to cover
the crispy, chewy goodness before sinking their teeth into a state fair
favorite.  My love of Fletchers came later on but as a child my choice was
always for a beautiful, mahogany smoked turkey leg, tender and juicy, the smoke
flavor would just explode in my mouth with each bite.  I would savor that lone
turkey leg all the way home.

Home.  Sunburned and tired I was always happy to be home, I would run right
to my room and sprawl across the bed and catalogue my memoires to be thought of
fondly till
the next fair day.

My Favorite Time of Year

16 Aug

Fall stirs thoughts of family and home, warmth and love.  Fall is my favorite
season, in Texas it means it is almost bearable outside, the sweltering, muggy
heat has given way to the breeze and the clouds.  Its wonderful patio weather
and most days you will find me having lunch with a friend outside allowing the
wind to ruffle my hair.  You may find me at the lake sitting on a dock somewhere
with my dad’s fishing pole and a book for in between, I could sit there for
hours letting the water take me away, if I relax enough I can almost feel the
gentle swishing of the water carrying the dock and me along with it.  I might be
at the dog park playing with my step dog watching her cut up with the bigger
dogs, she makes me laugh sometimes, she always thinks that she is bigger than
she is but there is always another dog there that will put her back in her
place.  She is nothing like me or my old Abby Monster, we were both kinda of
loners, she preferred to roam the fence line on her own, Chole just wants to be
out there in the middle of everything.

Fall reminds me that its almost time for Halloween and Thanksgiving, Charlie
Brown and Garfield specials on TV, Martha Stewart decorating and the Macy’s
Thanksgiving Day Parade, its haunted houses and hay rides….aah, hay rides, one
of my favorites, there is nothing like loading up the back of the trailer full
of itchy hay and riding around a dark field in the middle of nowhere and having
people scare you senseless, its the best!

Some of my favorite memories of fall are of me and my old friend Mel driving
around on Lawson Rd. or out by Lake Ray Hubbard on some dark long abandoned
road, the windows down and the smell of methane gas filtering in through the
van.  We talked about lots of things on those car rides, movie plots and life,
lost loves and regrets, hopes and dreams for the future, but mostly movie plots,
lol.  Those were some of the best nights I’ve ever had, I miss them sometimes
when life gets too much.

My favorite thing about Fall, at least right now that is, is that its finally
slowed down at work and I can finally take a breath and focus on all the other
things that I have neglected over the summer, like the stack of books by my bed
that I have collected all summer but have never found the time to read, all the
notes and ideas that I have had for stories that I want to write, the camera on
the table that is collecting dust because it has simply been too hot to be
outside looking for beauty in hidden places.  Now that its cooler and everyone
can put off the repairs till next year they just open the windows and let in the
air and breathe a sigh of relief that they have survived another Texas

To me, fall is happiness and lightness, its comfort and love, its letting go
of your cares and worries and just being, its peace and quite, fall is simply
the best.